I think the existence of joy has ceased to take place for the longest time.
Ok, I'll exclude the five days of life that H has kindly donated into my most pitiful life.
Just found the word to describe all that is within - Anguish. A quick check on Merriam Webster confirms it. Especially extreme pain. If God know this would cause extreme pain in my life, then why did He allow so? How can I, like G says, think of the little things that God has done in my life? To stop waiting for the miracle cos there are miracles within the small things? Lord, are You only concern about the small things?
Why have You allowed those close friends of mine get through... leaving me behind? I'm just so..... beyond words.
Anguish.
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Hey dear, please don't despair, there are many opportunities out there waiting for you to discover.
Maybe God foresees something that you might need something (e.g. vit M) to tide you through this period?
Anyway, I went for the briefing, its really like less than 100pax who managed to pull through and really, I think their selection process is erm..quite random I would say.
So please, don't doubt your capabilities. I think you are still much more competent than the other candidates who got in.
I was reading up on the possible routes you could take, i think you stand a good chance to go back full time to study! =)
Jia you ok?
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